Taking away the insulation . . .
Thursday, July 18, 2019
The comments on yesterday's blog were, as usual, the best part.
And several people commented on the experience of feeling MORE vulnerable after losing the weight. More anxious or fearful. More sad or mad.
The "insulation" had served a purpose -- insulating us from the feelings.
There was a reason for the padding . . . that old concept of "secondary gain" takes on new meaning!
And so losing the weight really required dealing with the feeling. Maybe exposing that live wire.
Risky. Potentially shocking. But necessary.
Necessary if the weight was going to STAY off. If it was going to be possible to MAINtain: still the MAIN thing which most of us would like to achieve . . .
But not just MAINtenance of the weight loss.
MAINtenance of that spiritual experience of freedom . . . honouring the body I'm meant to inhabit. Not some ideal body matching a photo-shopped focus of artificial aspiration but my very own realistic body when I eat intuitively with gentle nutrition and move optimally with gentle exercise.
MAINtenance of the emotional equilibrium too; accepting that feelings come and flow like the tides of the sea, 60,000 to 100,000 random thoughts a day. Not always happy, of course not. Most of the negative thoughts, however, just stories I'm telling myself about the past from a place of past trauma or about the future from a place where I'd anticipate that trauma would recur. With that place of PRESENT calm confidence (such a gift) always just one thought away.
Feeling better in body, mind and spirit. Minus the insulation!