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Sunday, July 14, 2019

Good morning everybody!

It's been a while since I've written a blog post, but today I just felt like I wanted to catch up those of you who are still here. :-) I've been thinking a lot about why I keep making excuses and don't follow through when I "recommit." In essence, why I come and go on SP and every other thing I try to use to help me make changes.

I've come to the conclusion it isn't just one thing, but a series of things; some--most--aren't too flattering! My inner child runs my life, and she's a total brat! I am scared to be abstinent from foods that I know trigger eating binges. I am scared of being successful. I am impatient and want to see massive results immediately. I feel like I'm old and it's too late, so why bother. I don't think I like myself very much. Staying fat and unhealthy allows me to isolate and just not deal with other people beyond my work environment where I have to deal with them. I like doing what I want to do; when I want to do it, and that's NOT healthy stuff like dieting and exercising. I want it to magically happen without the initial pain and suffering of self-discipline. I could go on and on with similar admissions.

WOW! When I look at some of this, I just want to smack myself!

I love reading about others' success, and even thought it's rather damning of me, I wish for it on some level myself, or I wouldn't ever come back. THIS time, instead of making a bunch of grandiose promises, I think I'm going to try something very small which seems overwhelming in certain ways. I am going to commit to keeping myself accountable by sharing with y'all at least once a week and at least logging on to SP and reading through my coaching stuff daily. I tend to obsess, so simply logging on can throw me down the rabbit hole of staying on the computer all day and making huge plans I can't possible follow through since I DO have to go to work and such.

I'd be interested to know how any of you did the whole "starting small" thing without ripping out your hair with impatience. :-) I know I didn't get this way overnight, but I kinda do want it to change overnight. :-)

Until next time!

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    Change needs to be done, bit by little bit. Whenever u think it isn't enough, reflect any all the positive things that happened that day. Start a positivity journal, and write down every positive thing u did that day, no matter how small. You will start to change how u think which will change how u act. Positive actions bring more positive actions.
    91 days ago
    Too they own self be true. emoticon
    92 days ago
    Jan. 1st I started calorie tracking on Spark. Is it a coincidence I started losing weight this year? Suggestion, when you are on Spark, set a timer.
    92 days ago
    "I am impatient and want to see massive results immediately." Me too! That's one of the hard parts. One thing that might help and doesn't take a lot of time is to write 3 successes each day. Yesterday, I noted that it was easier to put my shoes on. Hopefully, once you get the feeling of success, you'll start to crave it.

    You really are worth it. I really struggle with the "want to" and "give up" cycle too. I read a Weight Watcher's success story and she had joined and quit WW 15 times before it finally clicked. Here's hoping it's clicking for us this time!
    92 days ago
  • DARLINGD1970
    Thank you for your honesty. I found myself in the same situation. I think many of us have close to the same experiences but are afraid to put ourselves out there You have this. emoticon
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