Saturday, July 13, 2019
When I look at this I remember exactly still what it felt like to be 386 pounds. I hated going to the gym and just 3 years before that I loved going to the gym. Everything was so hard and working out felt like punishment for bad behavior. I could not do any of the things that I had done before and it was hard to make it thru a 30 minute workout. And the last time I went to the gym I was making it thru to over an hour and 20 minute workouts.
What this really means is you have to start somewhere and when you are morbidly overweight this means you start at the bottom and work your way up. for a long long while I would work out everyday even if it was doing a home workout. I did not want to lose everything I had built. I associated everything working hard with that space. "The Gym" and I worked hardest at the gym than I ever did at home.
Right now in the moment I cannot financially get a new membership and I have to start doing what I absolutely know how to do at home for the time being. I have been taught and trained what to do. I have a weight bench and weights, as well as a few weight bars.
When I first started lifting weights I absolutely hated it! I hated nothing more than that. My gym partner taught me old school that for every muscle there was a free weight exercise for that muscle group. Nothing prepared me for how everything would hurt, places hurt that I never imagined could hurt. It would take me days to recover sometimes and one day I could add more weight and another day I was outgrowing the weights I had used from the beginning on the strength training machines. I was making progress.
For whatever reason I always stopped going to the gym whether it be because I had some bill I had to pay or needed groceries and I couldn't accept that I truly could not afford to get my monthly membership and I hated that. Because it always meant I had to start all over again and rebuild everything I had worked so hard to attain.
Being poor and living in Appalachia is not for the faint of heart. I may write a little about that. I am from a very small town in Appalachia. There literally are very few jobs, and zero public transportation. SO to get anywhere you must have a car. The other option is doing what I have been doing since 2008 which is working from home online. At the time I saw it as my only option and now it's even harder to find a job online that pays well enough to meet all of your needs.
Let's talk about the other aspect of weight loss which is you simply cannot afford to eat healthy all the time if your poor, which I am as poor as it gets at the moment. Everything I was raised on is definitely classified as high fat or high carb foods and to make it here you must supplement some of your diet with those things if your on a meager food budget. You cannot outrun your fork either, I know and I have tried to. All you can do is try and make better choices and work with what you have to balance some things in your diet out.