How Do I Get To Know Me?
Saturday, July 13, 2019
Been MIA for a couple of days. Had a bit of hopelessness happen. I don't really know why. You know how those mindfulness books say "Analyze why...." Well I am no good at doing that. It's like my brain shuts the door to any kind of analysis. I was the same way when I went to a counselor years and years ago, could never really get to the bottom of why I start feeling hopeless and then head for the cupboard.
I think what hit me this week was when I went for a bone density test on Wednesday and discovered I had lost 3/4". I am down to 5'1 and 3/4" which makes my 150 pounds even more into the "obese" section of the BMI. Ugh, ugh, ugh. That sent me into a bit of a spiral.
Oh well, I feel much better today and am back on track. Literally--tracking my food, getting some exercise in (difficult in this 95 degree scorching sunshine heat.) And am going to do my darnedest to stay away from the TV reruns and actually do positive stuff for myself.