Tuesday, July 09, 2019
Yesterday I went slightly off the rails and didn't track any of it, and this morning was up about half a pound. Hey there correlation, I bet your friend causation is coming with you this time. In any case, I felt proud of myself for stepping on the scale when I honestly wanted to just pretend yesterday was fine and consequence free. Hooray for not hiding from reality.
Today I tried to pull myself back on the rails, and did track, and it wasn't as pretty as I was hoping but at least I did it. (Note to self: going to bed saves calories, because making coffee-based caffeine taste good means sugar like whoa.) And I mean, it could've been a lot worse, because I was trying to make good choices and paying attention today, so half credit. And I've had maybe six cups of water so far. (thirsty family members who don't use their own water bottles because I'm trying to always have some water with me now. slight grumble. But at least we're all hydrated? And I got more waterbottles, so I can just fill them all and hope everybody else will pick not the one I'm using... and if that doesn't work I can be the weirdo who has a talk with her family about it.)
We had company last week, and we're on the homestretch of leftovers from overpreparing. Note to self: next time, try to plan lighter fare for our guests, both what we choose and how much we make. Uffda that was a lot of pulled pork.
Sometimes I feel abashed about writing on here, but I'm trying to not. It's good to have an outlet, even if all I write is what exercise I did (sadly none so far today but maybe I'll actually do a bit before bed--thinking knee pushups and stairs at this point). It's good to have an outlet, and a habit of writing, and a reminder that I'm for real doing this, even when it's not going great and I want to pretend things are fine and ignore what I have to do to make things for real fine. (if that makes any sense. not sure.)
Total random aside: is it just me or is the soundtrack kinda obtrusive in Stranger Things3? Can't remember how it was in previous seasons, but it was getting a little much at times. Some of the music was so perfect, but it just seemed really yanking on the 80s nostalgia. (maybe it was just having the captions on, as is my constant habit--the songs in the background were all pointed out in the captions but I maybe wouldn't have noticed them if it was just my ears)