Tuesday, July 09, 2019
It's peculiar, but I've become aware, not of inevitable mortality, something I still generally regard as far off in the indefinite future. Instead I'm becoming aware that the life I enjoy could crumble, suddenly, tomorrow. Or later this afternoon.
I have friends who have suddenly found themselves on medication for medical problems they were unaware of, and which could be lethal. Others are managing early manifestations of common but life-altering conditions. Still others, very capable folks, are struggling to keep their lives together, through physical disaster like flooding in their home, an unanticipated financial melt-down, or loss of a very important family member or friend. Things, it seems, don't always go well.
So I'm aware, at the edge of my consciousness, that I may not be very many steps from serious upset or disaster. This does not make me dark or moody. It does not make me fearful. Or even particularly conservative. But, when I think about it, it does make me a little uncertain that I will continue to thrive.
The outcome of this is a little more vigilance, a little more care with life choices, and a determination to meet challenges as they occur - or even better, prepare for challenges with a bit of planning. So far, so good. But, as my friends' lives show me, nothing lasts forever.