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Monday, July 08, 2019

I thought I would know one way or the other today, but I’ll get the results quite a bit later.

Even nasty experiences have very interesting lessons. I get all sorts of insights. When I’m preoccupied and maybe I ignore people or don’t react in an animated way, it reminds me not to be too sensitive to other people’s reaction to me. It’s probably not even me that’s on their mind.

I’ve realized how much doing a good job with caregiving has been a matter of luck with being strong and having good health rather than being virtuous.

I should have reacted in a more timely fashion to symptoms which were embarrassing, but I’m human with human weaknesses, which is the best thing to say to myself at this point since I can’t turn the clock back. I have to stop myself saying coulda shoulda, even though I coulda shoulda, because the only thing it will achieve is damaging my physical and mental health.

Fear comes in waves, especially when I’m not busy. I know that I can ride the wave quite soon and get back to contentment by determining to do so.

Anyway everything may be all right.

PS Less panicked today :-)
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    Boy you got that right. Most people are way to worried about their own issues to criticize you. If they don't seem welcoming or interested or caring, it's because they're scared or preoccupied.

    Sending you healing good juju. Remember, your job is to take the next best step!
    193 days ago
    Denial is the brain’s protective mechanism. **SIGH** You’re right . . . the woulda, coulda and shoulda’s aren’t going to change a thing, and just make us more anxious.

    Prayers for you.

    195 days ago
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    Thoughts are with you as you anxiously await your results...and waiting in a calm, hopeful, stress-free manner does sometime call for superhuman mental strength....and, as you pointed out, we are only human.
    Woulda, shoulda, coulda is something we all indulge in BUT it serves no purpose because at the time we did not have the benefit of future facts. Be gentle and kind to yourself and know that you are absolutely doing the best that you can and are strong enough to deal with whatever the results are.... emoticon
    195 days ago
    195 days ago
    Hope it’s good news.
    195 days ago
    The waiting is tough tough tough -- and especially when the waiting is extended.

    I so fervently hope that your fear will prove unfounded.

    And you are so right -- every one of us is dealing with some immense struggle pretty much all of the time, and preoccupied with it.

    195 days ago
    I'm so sorry you have to wait longer to be relieved of this suspense. When you say "fear comes in waves," I realize that there's a possibility this is serious, and I'm worried. I hope you can get through the time before you know the results without dwelling too much on the negative possibilities. I pray you get good results and will feel grateful and relieved after this is over and your usual genki self comes back. Hang in there, my dear.
    195 days ago
    Sorry to hear that you are struggling with this. The waiting game might be the very hardest one to play. It helps to keep busy and try not to anticipate outcomes. Great that you are confirming that "Everything WILL be all right" because you have the power to make it so!!
    196 days ago
    Both mental and physical health is important. I hope you are being kind to yourself. Thinking of you and sending prayers.
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    196 days ago
    Margaret I totally understand how the brain takes over and starts on negative scenarios to taunt you when you're not otherwise occupied.

    Hope you hear sooner rather than later, waiting is the worst emoticon emoticon emoticon
    196 days ago

    Nasty experiences do have very interesting lessons.

    May you be riding waves of contentment. emoticon
    196 days ago
    Yes, we learn from these types of situations and carry on. Have a wonderful day.
    196 days ago
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