In this weight loss game we are playing, I mean. Is it just setting a number, and when a number smaller than that number appears on the scale, you win, and the game is over?
Or are there legitimate wins along the way to a final destination?
Or is just being a little bit better than you were before, whether that before was yesterday, last week, last month, etc just fantastic in your book, and may all those little better thans add up to a grand conjuration of success on that scale?
I find myself not sure what my answer is. I'm down about 25 pounds from March 2018, I think I can safely say that. But I'm still 6-7 pounds higher than when I first visited Spark People, back in September of 2011. And I'm nearly 40 pounds higher than when I reached my lowest subsequent weight in March of 2013.
That said, I've been feeling pretty okay about the weight, even though I'm realizing I'm likely not going to meet the set-in-October-2017 goal of getting down to 200 pounds by October 2019. My weight loss is a slow grind, and another ten pounds at this point is a 6 month kind of thing, more so than three months.
But then I went to this potluck/party yesterday, and a friend snapped a picture, as he's always doing, and posted it to facebook, and...well....it might as well be a BEFORE picture, what with that bulging stomach, and that little chin being engulfed by the second chin. That pic is disturbing to me, especially with what I just said about being mostly ok with the weight these days. I have a realistic body image, I know that belly exists, I know the multiple chins are there. But it is possible to be in a state of mind where that doesn't become the end all and be all. And now I'm wondering whether that state of mind has been irrevocably altered. Guess I'll find out over the next few weeks.