I didn't get much done yesterday. I had a really rough health day. I've got some severe pain that comes and goes in a place that does not have any organs other than intestines, and DH told me some possible thing it could be that I can't remember. At any rate I have to make an appointment to see the doctor as soon as I get back home. But other things that happen when I have either super high blood sugar (I did not, checked) or a seizure happened. I ended up in my chair in my room needing help to get to the bed not two steps away. Had to call DH on the phone because he was not responding to messages. Gotta print a July calendar and note it on there. Dizzy this morning, but because I was unable to get much done yesterday, it all has to get done today.
So, DH made two smoked turkeys, we are going to take the rest of the meat with us on vacation. But he made corn to go with it. I only had a tiny bit with my turkey, but when I woke that night I was really craving more, I've not had corn in a long time. So I had a bowl. And it did not go over well with my stomach at all!! It hurt something awful and I barely slept the rest of the night. Same thing happened with some ice cream and cookies that DH brought home for me. Peach ice cream, nothing like it on a hot day. But it tore me up. I think it is time to really work hard on going Paleo and eliminating these things from my diet altogether. I know that since my surgery there are some things I don't digest well, and I'm not supposed to have, which is why I'm supposed to be on Paleo. Time to bite the bullet and just do it.
I think I mentioned it in a previous blog, but I'm quitting coffee. Me, the coffee-aholic, who used to drink several pots a day when working (started drinking it at 15), but managed to cut down to one cup a day... I've been drinking more of late... Paleo does not allow processed sugar nor creamer... and I don't like coffee without it. So, I'm giving myself till the end of July to slowly go to green tea in the morning, or really whatever tea I want, but green tea will be my go-to. I love chai, but it is supposed to have cream/milk and sugar in it as well. I'm taking what I have with me on vacation, along with several other teas, so that I can enjoy it before the end of july. It's really a bummer because chai is so wonderful around the holidays. But, tea is so much better for you. I'll have coffee, the really nice stuff, when we go out to the fancy restaurants my in-laws like to go to for birthdays, when everyone else is having dessert. But that will be it.
When I first started crocheting, I was awful at it. It would be super loose on one part, then so tight I could barely work on it the next. I finally had someone come and physically move my hand the way they are supposed to go and how to hold the yarn, and it clicked. Then she showed me a great youtube channel, where the guy walks you through how to do that, in case I forgot, and I've been crocheting since, but I stopped when some people didn't appreciate the gifts I gave them. Things I could have sold on Etsy for a lot of money, and they turned their nose up at it (holiday gift, for family no less). But I realized that I enjoy crochet, and I can't let what others think stop me from doing something I find so therapeutic. My BFF, I asked her to pick something out for me to crochet for her for my first project in over a year and a half, and she picked the biggest project you can do, something I've never done, an afghan. I'm just going to do a simple double crochet one for her, so I can say that I've made one, then I'll go back and make her a nice one with a pretty pattern and nicer yarn. I think getting over the hurdle of starting will help me. I'm finding that persistence with a lot of things is the key to making it work. I've lacked that, being a procrastinator. But I have found my motivation, and my goals. I'm going to get to working towards my goals, and not look back. But I'm also going to keep the below in mind:
I have a long way to go. A lot to work on. But these years with my family, with myself at this stage, age, and all that, I will never have again. I'm going to slow down and smell the flowers along the way. I'm still going to be persistent, dedicated and focused on what I need to do and my goals, but I'm not going to let that detract from the present. I'm going to take time to smile, to laugh, to be goofy with my family and hang out. To teach my kids the things my Mom never taught me for some reason. I know she had her reasons, but I will never know what they were. I want to have the kind of relationship with my kids that I had with my Mom, but in a kinda different way. My Mom had me when she was older, I was the youngest and 11 years younger than my oldest sibling. So she was going through her 2nd teenage years, as I call them, when I was a teenager. We had so much fun together. I don't want to put my kids in some of the positions my Mom put me in, but I do want them to have fun with me, know they can come to me for anything, and that I will always be there for them. My oldest daughter actually thanked me this morning for being such an accepting parent. I was floored. She said so many kids she knows, their parent either make them do things they hate (like sports or clubs) or hate what their kids are into (some of them are 'furries' so I understand that, but the way she put it seemed like the parents needed to understand their kids more). Anyway, working on staying present and not thinking a million steps ahead. I still want to have my action plan, my routine, and work towards my goals, of course!! But I want to be fully present in what is going on now, not a million steps ahead.
I probably won't be on here much for the next 10 or more days. I hope you all have an awesome week, weekend and remember to kick butt!!