Good Morning Tuesday!
Tuesday, July 02, 2019
Got up super early again this morning. My weighted blanket somehow fell off of me and I just could not get it on right or fall back asleep, so I got up. I'm going to go back to bed when DH wakes up. He reads the news and such on his phone for a long time before he actually gets out of bed, so I'll cuddle with him and more than likely fall asleep. I'll get up when it is time to get the kids up and start my day from there.
Yesterday ended up being a rough one for me. I wanted so badly to get things done, but my migraine was still there and with my kids prompting me, I finally went and laid down, they did the few chores that absolutely needed to get done (like the dishes and mopping the muddy dog paw printed floor, lol) I have such awesome kids! My pup laid with me for most of the time, or would come check on me, shoving her nose in my face and licking me to make sure I was okay, they heading out again. She likes to lay right up against me or on top of one of my legs, lol. We went shopping and got the kids bathing suits, my head was killing me, and I had taken my migraine meds, one of which makes me sleepy and seems to last a lot longer than it used to, so I was in a haze the entire time. I had forgotten my phone, and had told my husband that, so I figured he would stay close by, nope. We ended up walking the whole store before we found them. He had even messaged my phone, that he knew I didn't have, to tell me where they were.
Lots to do today, and to get ready for next week. It would be easier if my MIL would answer my questions about what the cabin has and does not have (I need to know if I need to bring my blender for my shakes, do they have a washer/dryer, that kind of thing). And I found out my SIL's girlfriend is coming. Joy. It's not that we don't get along, it is that she is so self-absorbed and such an attention hog, that I just really don't like her much. Drama is not my thing, and it's all she talks about. I'm tired just thinking about it.
Realized yesterday that I'm dehydrated, so going to make more of an effort to drink lots of water. I don't want to go hiking next week and get dizzy from dehydration. Still need to find out how long the hikes are going to be so I know if I need to bring my camelbak and protein bars and such for along the way. I'll probably bring it just in case, if no on answers.
One thing that is really upsetting me right now is that I have not been involved in any of the text messages or emails about this vacation and what/when/where we will be doing anything. It's like I don't have a say in anything. And it is making me really mad. I don't get angry, not much at all, it's not an emotion I was allowed to express when I was growing up and I've had a lot of trouble with expressing it as an adult, I usually turn it into something else, like depression. But, this time I'm going to let myself be upset. Because it is not right. I'm either a part of this family and have a say in what happens, or I'm not. If I'm not, then I just really don't want to go and don't want anything to do with them. That may seem harsh, but I've been through so much in my life, I've learned that people that will walk over me like that do not deserve to be a part of my life.
Okay, now I'm super tired again, and think I can sleep for a few more hours, till it is time to get the kids up.
Hope you all have a wonderful Tuesday!!