Monday, July 01, 2019
I seem to be frozen in inactivity. Like a performer before stepping on stage, I am on the cusp of activity...but not moving. I know my lines, I am prepared, and I am just about to step out for my big moment...but I seem to be frozen like stage fright.
What am I afraid of? I know what I need to do but I seem frozen...that isn't the right word. I am not afraid, but I am just not ready to step out and take my place. I don't know why I am ready but unable to step out, it's been this way for years. I recognize this issue but still seem unable to act.
It's funny, not funny, to know what to do, how to do it, where and when to do it, but still seem unable to act on it. What am I waiting for???