83 today 85%humidity start date 6/22/19 today's date 6/25/19 weight 200lbs
I got 4 half mile walks in today. 2 miles
I say that because the destinations were 1/2 mile away and there was a substantial break before turning around (work and socializing)
This is not good for me. I have walked many times to Walmart which is exactly 2.5 miles from my house and then come back after shopping for 30 minutes. I also walk to therapy 1.8 miles then return.
I do not weigh 287 or even 232 anymore. When I was at 287 walked 1/4 mile then home 40 minutes later. Evenutally I got up to 30 minute 1/2 miles with a shorter break (less to do at that destination) and 30 minutes back.
So a mile took an hour.
5 years later I walk a 15-18 minute mile depending on my motivation.
today was just a pure lack of effort with an excuse of the wrong shoes (sandals both outings).
A little more thought and a bit of effort is needed.
2 years ago I lost 20 lbs in one summer.It is do-able. it has stayed off. But I have remained in the zone of 193-206 since then. Flutter up, flutter down.
My goal is 150 but is it really? or is that just the magic number because that is the healthy weight I had before becoming pregnant 23 years ago. At 145 I looked anorexic with my build back then. all my ribs were visible, I had no fat across my stomach, I carried al my weight in my rear end and thighs.
I AM NOT 27
I am 50 and proud of it but I have to change my ways and perhaps my goals.
Or maybe not my goals! A 60 year old friend of mine just dropped 75lbs in the last year. She went from a 22 ans some 3x to a size 8 recently. (I received 4 boxes of clothing from her as I am a 20 almost 18 and 2x/1x work well on me)
Maybe I have gotten lazy and complacent with the knowledge I am no longer 287. I no longer wear size 52 waist men's jeans. It isn't helping that people are shocked when I tell them what size I am or my weight when they want to give me clothing. My body looks smaller than it is, it always has. I hides 30lbs at least by the way I dress. And maybe that is the point. I am pulling this weight off socially. I mean I work at a church-- no one cares about my weight except as long as I am healthy and watch my diabetes. Self care is actually the 1st thing in my job description (it is for everyone). My son doesn't care about my weight. i don't date but that is because even though I am bigger-- the men I kept meeting only wanted a friends with benefits arrangement. In other words sex with no relationship. Women can get sex at any size. I have no issues with my weight regarding male attention. I just don't want hookups.
so my acquaintances, colleagues, family are all happy I am finally at this weight.
It is easy to settle into comfort and approval or indifference around me.
Tomorrow is weigh in day for a team challenge of mine. I've been eating healthy all week (with the exception of Sunday).
Its 9pm almost. I have about 4 hours of work still to do.
My alarm is set for 6 am. I set a new "streak" to keep track of on my SP start page. I want to go walking at 6am 6 days a week. Maybe if I get a few of those going it will build momentum.
thanks for coming along my journey