Friday, June 14, 2019
I said goodbye to my babies last Friday. After teaching kindergarten for over 20 years, I don’t get nearly as emotional as I did when I started my career, but I always feel something. I spend over 7 hours a day with my kiddos. I spend more time during the week (awake hours) with my students than their parents do, so saying goodbye is always sad. This year, however, I did something I haven’t done in years. I actually cried! I LOVED this group of kids. I teach in a fairly low income district. My school has very challenging kids and families, yet this year it was a step back in time. My families and kids were awesome. I hadn’t had a group like this in several years, so it was nice. On the last day, I was doing fine until 2 of the kids started to cry as I was lining them up for busses. Students crying on the last day is nothing new. Kids often cry because school is the most stable environment they have and they are leaving that for 3 months. When I saw the kids cry this year, however, I started crying too! It actually felt good to feel that again. The last several years have been rough and I was afraid that I was losing my passion for what I always loved. This year my passion was back. Crying on the last day confirmed that. I know that I will have challenging groups again (I have already been warned about what I am getting next year!), but having a little break for a year was good and needed. Now it’s time for Summer. I have been back and trying to lose weight for about a month now. I have been doing OK , but not great. I have lost a little weight and I am feeling a little bit better in my clothes, but now that school is out, I feel I can ramp up my efforts. The last month of school is very stressful and busy for the teachers. There is so much paperwork, meetings and end of the year stuff to do. I felt like I did a fairly good job keeping up with my goals, but I had several slip ups and didn’t go about weight loss with the consistency I know I need for success. Now, however, the stress is off and I have 2 ½ months to focus on ME!