DH's on call is over but he is not happy
Friday, June 14, 2019
good morning; When DH creates this anxiety for 2 weeks from his on-call duty, it takes its toll on me. I try to support him but he is such a burden. I feel he is wasting his life in stress. I try to distract him, but I get upset he does not learn the techniques that I use to help him. He does not exercise during that time. I have never understood that. He has an end in sight for his retirement. I would of thought he would be so happy. This weekend is father's day. DS is suppose to come, but I never know. He has to content with his wife who does not like us. I have chosen not to beg him to come down. He has an invitation, but I do not want to hear his excuses that he can not come or whatever. He has to manage his own situation and I know it is difficult. I do not have food in the house for them yet. I do not like to buy ahead of not knowing for sure he is coming with baby. I have a pool that I want to inflate but I do not want to put it up and if he not come. So we just go on assuming he is not coming.
My knee is feeling much better so I have to plan something for him to do. I do not want to just sit and watch TV that we have been doing. That is getting old fast for me. I hope he can get into reading again and work on a road trip he wants to do after he retires. The reality is that will not get done either. He is making this trip so detailed that it does not sound as fun as I thought it was going to be. He has detail but not so much flexibility. I do not want to travel with a time table. This is a battle that I do not want to bring up yet. Any way, I am going to have a spa day for me. have a good day!!!