School is over
It is 90+ degrees outside every day
My children are out of state with their dad
All of these are signs of change for me. I am an elementary school teacher so at the end of May, my main duties come to an end for a couple months. That doesn't mean I don't work over the summer, but the stressful part of life comes to an end and my everyday routine changes. I no longer have to wake up at 5 am. I no longer have to wake my own child for school. I no longer come home from work and switch over to Mommy mode, inquiring about homework, coking dinner, and making sure children are cared for.
In the summer, it is all about ME. My kids have gone to visit their father for the 2 months and it is time for my fiancee and I to reconnect and enjoy us. With that said, my fiancee becomes my WIFE in almost 9 months!!! I remember almost 2 yrs ago, we started to plan the wedding and decided on the Leap Day of 2020 date. It was so far away, but now it is upon us!
So how does this play into my Spark life? My fiancee and I have been together for 4 yrs this coming October. Long story short, over these 4 yrs we have both gained weight. I have put on 40 lbs. I'm not sure how much weight she has put on, but I would not be surprised if it is close to the same amount. We have gained this weight together and we are ready to take it off together!
We had a very serious, straight up conversation about our weight last week. We decided to make changes to our lifestyle to become that healthy couple we want to be. Since June 2nd we have started making healthier choices when eating
We have started being more mindful when deciding when to eat, asking ourselves if we are physically hungry or just bored
We have also started walking together
and encouraging each other to MOVE during the day. Yesterday on our evening walk, we talked about failures and being flexible. My weakness is that I KNOW what I need to do to lose weight. I don't give it my all though because I don't believe it will work. I know my previous attempts have all gone the same way....
I plan and plan. I create a routine and start off strong. But inevitably, something unexpected comes up and derails me. Yet again, another failed attempt.
But not this time! My fiancee's words last night really hit me hard. She talked about making a plan (be it what we eat or exercising routines), but then being flexible with executing it. If something comes up, we must acknowledge it and still hold ourselves accountable. If we absolutely cannot workout at the time we planned, then we compensate for it at a different time or on a different day. If we eat something indulgent, we don't binge for the rest of the day. We will acknowledge it and make healthier choices at the next meal/snack.
My brain wants to say "NOOOOOO! I need a plan. I need rules. I need a routine to follow!", but I now know that is why I have failed so many times in the past. I focus and dwell on creating a "fail-proof plan", but this does not exist. I now see that I need to focus on changing my mind set completely. Keeping my goals in mind as I go throughout my days, but not relying on a set of rules or routine to keep me accountable.
I'm not sure where this is going to take me, but I am ready for the adventure!
A sneak peek at what my fiancee and I will be wearing at our wedding - Alice in Wonderland themed, by the way.