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Today would have been

Thursday, June 06, 2019

The bus is now leaving for New York City and returning next Friday. My 84 year old friend with joy and excitement as her first trip since her husband died. We made our reservations last September and planned which trip we wanted to take. Now I am feeling sorry for myself. I am alone in so many ways. Something in me changed since the day my husband did what he did to the pictures. Yes he put them back as they were but that visual left a scar and my heart has been hardened since. I am not the same. I don’t respect or trust him like I did and I lost confidence in us. Through this drama I have felt like a one person battle. I am on the frontline and I am running out of ammunition. I have written my witness statement which the judge, prosecutor and attorney all receives and the sentencing is just a formality because it has been settled #1 only gets probation. No use even going to court or reading it at this point.
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    Sounds like there are lots of broken pieces in your life right now.
    Sending healing prayers.
    639 days ago
  • EISSA7
    I am hoping that you are ON the bus, following through with your plans, with your friend!
    639 days ago
    I would have been upset too :( hugs
    639 days ago
    And you're missing the trip? Oh my! Not sure what he did to the pictures, but it certainly broke your heart. I hope you can rest after all of this
    639 days ago
    Are you going on the trip? Sounds like whatever happened with the photos really hurt. Have you discussed it with him. You sound drained and good reason. Are you able to get to the pond? that is a place you write about that seems to bring out the best is everyone. I see your family pond as a happy safe place.
    639 days ago
    Take care
    639 days ago
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