Stupid wagon keeps throwing me off.
Sunday, June 02, 2019
You know the expression, "I fell off the wagon?" Well my wagon throws me off, everytime I climb back on it hits some stupid pothole and dumps me down this huge hill making me climb and climb back up to catch the wagon that went off without me. An on the way there are tables at work laden full of foods that call my name and bid me...."Come eat - it is just one taste." Then once I taste it the inner monologue takes up the charge, "Well since you ate off today might as well make the most of it because you are going to hurt anyway so it might as well be worth it." Stupid inner monologue.
I was doing so great for nearly 3 years - I only lost in the first 5 months but I maintained the 45 I have lost. Now I am up about 25 and I need it all to go away.
I did discover that food controls my pain. I know how to eat correctly. When I don't my autoimmune disorder attacks me. At first it wasn't so bad, but now it is getting bad again. Summer is less stressful. I am in control of my food choices as my kitchen is totally compliant minus the boys goodies which I am not tempted by.
I eat well, I can cook. I exercise daily - thought after 2 days I am my usual sore in the back but that too will pass. Stress is gone.
So here is 2 months to get back on track.