To weigh or not to weigh
Friday, May 24, 2019
The first few days back have been going great! It feels good to be eating healthy again. I spent a few days getting organized for weight loss. I tried on clothes. I made piles of things that don’t fit and that I want to get back into. I cleaned out the refrigerator and pantry. And finally…….I weighed myself ( it had been quite a while!).
I really, really, REALLY considered not using a scale this time around. I have always had a bit of anxiety with scales and thought that maybe I would just base my progress off how I feel and how my clothes look on me. I know that works for some people. I held off for a few days, but then I reflected back on the last five years since starting my weight loss and realized…..
-While I was in the process of losing weight the first time, I weighed myself consistently. The weight came off!
-During the year or so that I maintained my weight loss, I weighed myself consistently. The weight stayed off!
-When I started yo-yoing the same 5-8 pounds, I was weighing myself inconsistently. My weight was inconsistent.
-Over the past year or so, I haven’t weighed myself at all and guess what? I have only gained.
So, even though I hate scales, I need to weigh in consistently to be accountable. The scale tells me the truth when I need it the most. When I start blaming the dryer for my clothes not fitting, the scale tells me if that is true or not (usually being “not”) . When I start justifying that an extra snack or a trip to McDonald’s doesn’t make a difference, the scale lets me know if that is truly the case. I know I am more than a number on a scale. My overall health and happiness has many, many factors, but at the end of the day I came back to Sparks to lose weight and my scale tells me what I weigh.
This morning I weighed myself for the first time in over a year and here is where I was and currently am:
Summer 2014 - my heaviest - 187 lbs.
Summer 2015 - reached GW - 155 lbs.
May 2019 - Current weight - 176 lbs.
I gained 11 lbs in the last year, but around 20 overall. Although disappointing, I am actually relieved that I know where I stand and where I need to go. I am out of denial. It’s not the scale’s fault I gained weight. It’s my fault and I own it. I am excited to get this weight back off.