To weigh or not to weigh?
Monday, May 20, 2019
I restarted in March with Sparkpeople and I am committed to making lasting changes in my lifestyle.
The past few years have been difficult and as I sank deeper into myself, I not only felt bad in my head but - no suprise - in my body too. I made a list of physical traits that were troublesome: couldn’t walk upstairs, bad back, unable to bend down and pick up off the floor, indigestion and sleeplessness, headaches, constipation...and too many more.
So since March, I have tracked my eating and changed my food choices and I feel better. Not great yet but I’ll take better.
The one thing I have not been able to do is get on the scale. Total inability to confront how heavy I allowed myself to get. Unfortunately, It has not kept me from obsessing how much I weigh and how far I have to go. And my delusional self thinks that after almost 3 months I should ‘be there’. Wherever that is.
But I feel a difference in my clothes and for right now, that is how I am going to continue. And I am trying to identify smaller victories and maybe eliminate a few items from my ‘aches and pains’ list. One day at a time.