Where I Am Now
Tuesday, May 14, 2019
I have been embarrassed for a decade to have people over. My excuse was that the family seemed to need my attention. I spent most of my time babysitting or working, Children's pets ate my floors and back porch. The nice plants were killed in the yard. Grandchildren made Picassos of my walls. Funds were stretched to the limit to feed everyone. My personal possessions were stuffed into one room and it was not pretty. The family seemed to get into more dire situations no matter what I did.
Then a wonderful thing happened, my house plumbing busted. The house was not capable of supporting everyone. Family moved out. Funds became available to fix roof, plumbing and floors. I recommitted to daily exercise and diet. I planted a new garden.
I now cook in and follow the SparksMenu. I also started a Yoga Class yesterday with the hubby and the bones are feeling it today. The walking is back on track too. This is great!
The family still connects and struggles but I think they have grown for the effort of being on their own. The adults committed to exercise, diet and education goals. The kids have wonderful daycare situations. They repair their own stuff. They clean their own areas.
I recently watched a TED video about the mechanism of addiction and it struck a chord. The speaker's gist was that addiction can only be fought with connection in your environment. I also think that being in a crowd can be a bad place to be because you can even stop listening to yourself there.
Intentional Thinking: slowing down to think about things -- very hard for me. Many things still need to be changed... it is vital to have perspective tho.