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A recap of yesterday and my thoughts on it

Friday, May 10, 2019

The new challenge was great; I only have. 8 minutes from yesterdays kickboxing to do today. I completed 7 other challenges fully! This is a new take, a positive take on my typical hyper critical self. I'm working on being more loving, more compassionate, and ultimately more supportive of myself and my accomplishments. Because I view myself as immensely capable, I expect amazing feats. When I don't fully accomplish everything that I set out to, I can be rather harsh and hurt my own feelings. Lol. That seems about as dumb as I feel writing it but truth is truth. I wouldn't talk to my best pal like that so I have resolved to not talk to myself like that anymore either. The 35 second plank surprised me by being much harder to hold for the final 11 seconds! And the toe touches were a tad painful too. Nothing overbearing, just twinges to remind me of what needed more stretching. I struggled to get all 32 min in with kickboxing; after a breakthrough 20 sesh with the heavy bag, the other 4 minutes seemed to drag (hence why I still have 8 left to wrap up today). I was so into watching my 600lb life that I want over my '32' on the treadmill! I felt amazing and had the idea of finding out when those shows come on so I can schedule gym time during the shows that I like! :). This was one of my happiest moments yesterday. Breathing the heavybag for kickboxing was freeing and soul cleansing. I spoke out things that had been plaguing me for years, shed a few tears, and gave the bag a good 'whatfor'! :) It's times like these that I am most proud of myself. I get down in the dumps and feel blah, unmotivated, and generally craptastic but then I go and create a challenge, reignite my fire, and crush the $#1+ out of my goals. I really and freaking amazing and I must keep doing these things that help me remember it. One day at a time, one change at a time. This life is a journey and I'm here to design and enjoy my ride. :)
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    Great blog. I enjoyed reading it and could sense the catharsis in your writings. Keep up that spirit and you'll achieve your goals for sure!
    659 days ago
    yeah, I recognize some of what you are saying here! I would like to be able to treat myself as well as I treat others. My father was too critical so it manifested itself in different ways for his children! We can change things over time~ emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    660 days ago
  • NEPTUNE1939
    662 days ago
    Hahaha...when I don’t accomplish all I set out to do, I am,if anything, too loving and forgiving.
    I am doing the best I can with what I have on any given day.
    I, too, find that getting into a show on the treadmill makes the time fly.
    I bring my iPad to the gym and often get 45-60 minutes easily.
    You got this!

    662 days ago
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