It's Never Too Late to Make a Fresh Start
Wednesday, May 01, 2019
I haven't weighed myself - officially or unofficially - for over a week. I was back up to 151 and feeling like a failure. Why can't I stick to the most basic habits? I am eating the right foods. My diet is full of protein and vegetables and fruits, but I am eating way too much of them. Volume counts as much as value. I am also eating some of the wrong foods like sweets and white starches too often. I am blaming the various special occasions of the past few weeks, but they are over now and I have to focus.
Today is the start of a new month. I am doing my best to recommit myself to the basic habits and commit myself to avoiding sweets except for those designated occasions. I don't have many designated occasions coming up. I have Mother's Day, my mother's birthday, and my birthday. The first two occasions are in May. My birthday is in July. I have been able to avoid sweets before for long stretches in the past. I can do it again.
Yesterday I ate my breakfast as slowly as I could and I was satisfied before I finished it. I also ate my lunch slowly, but I ate it all. We will see how it goes today. I snacked a bit too much when I arrived at home hungry last night and then ate a bit more dinner than I should have. I also had a bit of dessert (leftovers from the weekend post-Easter celebration). Today is a new day. I ate my breakfast slowly and I am not feeling the mid-morning hungries.
I am still doing well with my workouts. I am so much stronger than I give myself credit for. Last week I started a new phase of PN workouts. Since some of the exercises were new to me, I used low weight. I was blowing through the required number of reps. I had to keep adding weight with every set until I was doing the eight reps required. I am so powerful. If I can be so committed to working out, I can commit to eating better.
I tried squats and deadlifts again. I know they are making my hip worse, but I had to try to see just how much I can still lift. I did more goblet squats and one-legged deadlifts with a kettlebell and used more weight than I used the last time. Then on Sunday I was doing a shoulder exercise with a barbell and I was using 65 pounds. I decided to see if I could to an ATG front squat with that much weight. I banged out 8 reps. It hurt though. I should not do that again. Despite the pain, I am so happy I still have my strength. Once this hip issues goes away, I am going to keep up my levels and set new records.
It's a new month. If I start fresh today, I can still accomplish a lot before this program is over. I will not give up on the program or on myself.