30,000-39,999 SparkPoints 38,155

Creating A New Normal

Friday, April 26, 2019

Nothing about my husbands passing feels normal. I keep busy but at night I feel it strongest. I wait for him to come home from work but he doesn’t come. I will never fall asleep to the sound of his snoring again. I want only the good memories. All his stuff just reminds me of his absence. I began with the two most communally used rooms, the bathroom and the kitchen. With them done, I turn to “our” room. The kids want me to make pillows out of his funny t-shirts. I’ll keep his silly shirts. I’ll keep a couple of his sweatshirts so that on cold days I can feel his warmth around me again. I’ll keep his Masonic pin, his grandfather’s military medals and a few special items each child will cherish now or someday. But to begin our new normal, the strange continuation of life without him present, I need to make “our” room “my” room. Tomorrow I will begin sorting his stuff as things to keep for the kids, donate, and throw away. I will begin putting our lives back in order by putting our house back in order. I miss him, the kids miss him, but we can not live in this loss. We need to cherish him while continuing to live again.
Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
    emoticon emoticon
    229 days ago
  • RHIANNON0207
    @slimmerjesse my husband died in a car accident April 17th.
    230 days ago
    I'm so sorry for your loss. I remember responding to your March blog that mentions your DH helping your son. Did he just pass away suddenly after that? I hope you have a support system of relatives and friends to help you.
    230 days ago
    Prayers for all of you. It will be a long road for all of you, remember to take each day as it comes. There will be days that you look at something and starting crying, and that is ok.
    Cherish you memories and take it slow and steady.
    230 days ago
    My heart goes out to you. I can not imagine how hard this is for you and your children. emoticon
    230 days ago
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment

    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.

More Blogs by RHIANNON0207