Let me try this again..and a binge stopped in its tracks
Friday, April 26, 2019
Feeling stressed and insecure today, so I blogged about it. A couple of members gave me their support, sorry to delete the blog, and I did appreciate the support, but I couldn't stand to read my comments again.
My job sometimes gets to me. Life sometimes gets to me. And I was venting about it. My objective was good. I wanted to sort myself out and turn myself back in the other direction. While I was working a little later, I came across this episode of a podcast I listen to:
and it was like someone was reaching down to give me a gift. It was the answer to what I was feeling. About boundaries, emotional resilience, and cultivating both.
My spiral was sorted out by writing about it, but I still felt stressed. I ended up eating a piece of the cake that my coworkers bring in on Friday. Then a donut. (Can't remember when I had one of these last). Then I felt like getting more sweets. I took a look at myself, thought, "I don't want this. I made a mistake. Twice. But now I forgive myself for slipping and I will stop here."
I then ate some fruit salad I had brought with lunch and a Clementine orange, and made myself a cup of tea. Now I am feeling a little better.
Pressure slips in while you are trying your best to go with the flow. Learning how to turn it off and free yourself takes a lot of effort.