How and why to make some better choices
Thursday, April 25, 2019
Continuing on with the “why I want to lose weight”, I want to note to myself how I felt after eating McDonald’s last night. Aside from the guilt, because it wasn’t what I had planned to eat and I knew it wasn’t part of my nutrition plan, I felt physically wrong. I felt a heaviness in my body as if I had overeaten at Thanksgiving. It was uncomfortable and lasted the entire evening. It also caused some constipation, which is uncomfortable, inconvenient and embarrassing. I did not feel energized, fulfilled or satisfied after my meal.
So why did I eat it? Such a great question and so hard to answer. First, Mike is out of town for work so I wanted to treat myself while no one was looking (which I need to address – why I “hide” what I eat? Especially since Mike and I eat McDonald’s all too often. I think part of it is that if no one sees me eat it, it didn’t actually happen and therefore it doesn’t count.), I was eating my frustration about not being able to get my labs done as I had planned and the stress of getting them done in the timeframe the doctor wants them but without taking off work. I also wanted something convenient and fun so I could get home fast, relax, and watch a movie and eat.
Obviously the better choice would have been to cook what I had planned. But what other options would have given me the same feeling as a ‘treat’, ‘fun food’, and ‘convenience’? Tough to fulfill those qualifications. Maybe a frozen dinner, which is still not what I would like to see myself eat. Maybe a better fast food choice, such as a salad (not my favorite, ever, though) or grilled nuggets from Chick fil a? (12 count = 210 calories + 45 calories honey mustard/140 ranch + 360 fries, 50 fruit cup, 140 superfood side). This is where I need to get creative and perhaps make a list of better options that still give me the feeling as a ‘treat’ and ‘convenience’.
I also have trouble with the temptation because I ‘deserve’ to eat poor nutrition foods because I’m in so much pain, it’s been a long day, and I’m tired of fighting. Totally understandable, I give myself that. But, the poor nutrition food is just going to make me feel worse in the long run and does nothing to contribute in my attempts to treat everything naturally for the time being (hello, TTC time!). I should also make a list of things I can do/have as a ‘treat’ on the days where it’s just been too much, and by the time I get home my pain levels are skyrocketing. Obviously tea has been a go-to which is great, because it’s also nutritional. But maybe a stash of dark chocolates (this worked before, just have to keep that stash filled!) and something more crunchy to fill that chip craving.
I know from experience my body reacts to what I eat just as much as the calories consumed. Now, I need to act on that information.
All this being said, I am so proud of myself for trying yoga last night to help ease the pain. Even if it wasn’t what I hoped it would be since it was more focused on breathing than anything else! It helped my shoulder a good bit, but I did still need an extra strength pain patch.