A little bit of success!
Saturday, April 20, 2019
I’ve spent maybe over a year thinking, “I don’t mind being a few pounds above a good weight. I don’t have to exercise much self-discipline to stay at this point. It’s comfortable.”
During the long break from work when I went back to exercising more, I was surprised at how difficult it was to get back my former fitness. Maybe a few pounds off would help. Was I telling myself the truth about not minding a couple of extra pounds? Whenever I saw myself in the mirror after a shower, I thought, “ Hm! Actually, I don’t like what I see!”
One comment on a blog: “Try the discipline for a while and see how it feels. Give it up if you don’t like it.” That made it feel manageable.
As often happens when I yank that chain, I noticed I hadn’t felt hungry for an awfully long time - always a sign that I’m eating too much. Food tastes much better if you’re a bit hungry before a meal instead of popping a snack into your mouth half an hour before. “Hunger isn’t an emergency.” Such a useful slogan! So I let myself get hungry. I try to stay away from food which isn’t nutrition dense. If I think I absolutely need a snack, I throw half away if it goes above 200 calories.
I experimented with tolerating a little hunger by the end of teaching 100-minute classes. That I can’t do. A rumbling stomach and slight weakness distracts me from teaching. In that case, hunger is an emergency! You really need good concentration for teaching, so I’ve gone back to fueling myself with a banana or half a sandwich before going into class.
From past experience, I know that the next stage will be boredom with self-discipline, but ideally, I would like to take off another pound or two.