Friday, April 19, 2019
It's my first holiday since my PE and my new lifestyle. I'm curious how the few In-laws I see will react. My FIL and his wife both seem to do ok with it sometimes. However, the SMIL (step-mother-in-law) seems to get very guilty about everything around me. She won't eat because I'm not eating, she feels bad about having Food Network on, etc. I keep telling her that she can do whatever she wants and if she's hungry she needs to eat and not worry about me. It is rather exhausting to keep it up and I end up feeling guilty. Damn mid-western roots!
Tonight I broke down and told them I would have dinner with them even though I know they don't et the best. They ordered pizza, fried chicken and jojos, and "salad". I had a small slice of pizza, 2 jojos, and some iceberg lettuce with Italian dressing. Needless to say, my stomach is cramping because I haven't had that much grease and salt in over 3 weeks. I'll live and it made them happy that they could feed me. I just might spend less time with them until I am in a more stable position and have figured out how to tackle the guilty feeling because I shouldn't feel guilty for trying to make myself healthy. I will see them on Sunday though and her 2 adult children who haven't seen me since all fo this. I am curious how they will react to me. I guess I will let you all know how it goes on Sunday night.
Well, have a good night and a Good Friday all!