Two blogs today and cat sitting
Tuesday, April 16, 2019
The inspector came and our condo passed the alarm test. Unfortunately, this involved 45 minutes or so of my neighbors testing in the other units in our building. Poor Mia, my cat, is still hovering on a chair in the basement. I keep going down to visit her and give her pets and hugs.
Today I feel like I turned a corner. I’m tired of beating myself up for silly things. Yes, the house needs more effort on my part, but I work full time. I can’t be my mother, the Woman WHOSE FLOORS YOU COULD EAT OFF. Feeling overwhelmed has become a deepening hole I’ve dug myself into. Feeling inadequate is sucking the life out of me. I am crawling out from under, and at the same time claiming ownership of myself and my own power. I am so many light years away from the Sue who was. I just have to claim ownership of this. For some reason, it seems safer to “remain a hopeless mess”. It was my reality for some years. I guess it became part of my identity. But having a loving husband and a stable job for many years has changed me. I am better than I give myself credit for. Very interesting...
One step at a time. Just keep moving forward.