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Two blogs today and cat sitting

Tuesday, April 16, 2019

The inspector came and our condo passed the alarm test. Unfortunately, this involved 45 minutes or so of my neighbors testing in the other units in our building. Poor Mia, my cat, is still hovering on a chair in the basement. I keep going down to visit her and give her pets and hugs.

Today I feel like I turned a corner. I’m tired of beating myself up for silly things. Yes, the house needs more effort on my part, but I work full time. I can’t be my mother, the Woman WHOSE FLOORS YOU COULD EAT OFF. Feeling overwhelmed has become a deepening hole I’ve dug myself into. Feeling inadequate is sucking the life out of me. I am crawling out from under, and at the same time claiming ownership of myself and my own power. I am so many light years away from the Sue who was. I just have to claim ownership of this. For some reason, it seems safer to “remain a hopeless mess”. It was my reality for some years. I guess it became part of my identity. But having a loving husband and a stable job for many years has changed me. I am better than I give myself credit for. Very interesting...

One step at a time. Just keep moving forward.
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  • MOLLIEMAC
    Awesome blog, you are getting so much more courageous! Clean floors? Not going to happen here any time soon with a dog and wet feet :).
    184 days ago
  • LINDA!
    Keep the positive attitude.
    185 days ago
  • CHRISTINEBWD
    Oh wow, glad to know there are others like me. I will never have the cleanest house that I would like. Hopefully people who come by come by to see me, not my house. emoticon emoticon

    We can only be who we are, although I tell myself I can be the peson I have always wanted to be, anytime I want. That helps me somehow. Anyway, glad to hear it, and welcome to the I-am-just-good-enough club. ;-) emoticon
    185 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/16/2019 5:45:03 PM
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    Good for you!
    185 days ago
  • SUNNYCALIGIRL
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    Very inspiring blog, thank you.
    185 days ago
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