Several days ago, I suspected that the body was beginning to settle down following the tweaks advised by the nutritionist that began about 6 weeks ago.
Today, I feel that I can confidently say the body is settling down.
What I find even more reassuring is the sense of calm present amid the confidence.
And, interestingly enough, as soon as I typed that line the voices of fear began screaming.
Yeah. I hear you. Have a good day and be on your way.
The voice of fear is not me. Thoughts are not me. I choose to identify with them or not.
Yes. The choice is mine.
I say mastery takes time because it has been 4+ years since the pelvic fracture made itself evident and my ability to move consistently was severely curtailed.
Being decked physically has been a gift. My focus shifted to another form of nourishment. I began to explore more deeply how my food choices were nourishing my health and well-being.
It has taken me this long to develop a better sense of understanding regarding fluid function in my body. Challenges with fluid function make themselves known in various ways. Weight gain is one of them; specifically, rate of weight gain and certain sized blips.
Recognizing this and understanding how to respond is important to me. It impacts my health and well-being.
Feeling much more confident determining the difference between simple challenges regulating fluid function versus unhealthy inflammation beginning to take hold. Feels good.
It has taken quite some time to get to this place.
As I type that line, my mind flashes to the elk and the ant. Animal totems for me. They symbolize the characteristics of stamina and patience. I've needed both to arrive at this place. And, I thank my animal totems for guiding me along the way.
Yes. Mastery takes time.