Excited and Impatient
Friday, March 29, 2019
Despite only a .6 lb. loss last night at my WW weigh-in, I remain excited about getting this regain back off and also determined. Only 42 lbs. to go and I'm back at my happy weigh of 150. I just wish it wasn't taking so long. Hopefully every week won't be this bad. I worked really hard last week, ate right, never used any of my weeklies or activity points, just stuck with the 23/day and maintained my activity level, which was pretty substantial (for me). Yesterday I got 15,000 steps in. That's a new record high for me! And every day before that I hit at least 10,000, even the day my son and grandson River came out. They spent the morning and part of the afternoon with us last Sat. and then my son left River with us for the evening while he and his wife had an evening out. Most of my walking is around and around inside of my house, so having toddler River here made it difficult. He would follow me around the house and when I came up to him, he'd hold his hands out to be picked up. That is hard to resist and I didn't. I picked him up every time, which put a curtail on my walking. He's heavy and I could only hold him in my left hand because my Fitbit is on my right hand and it needs to be moving in order to register steps. I somehow managed to get in 9,000 steps by 10:00 when River's parents picked him up so I knew I had to knock out the last 1,000 steps, which I quickly did. It left me a little short of my usual 12,000 steps however, but at least I got to 10k! Usually I try to get all my walking in during the day so I can enjoy some TV with Duane in the evenings.
I was going to wait until my official loss was 56 lbs. (including the weight I lost before joining WW on Jan. 31), to take a before and after picture, but yesterday I ended up wearing the same top that I had worn in a selfie I took at the end of August last year when I was weighing in at 239.8 pounds. Yesterday's weigh-in was 192.6 and that is a 47 lb. loss, which I discovered, is noticeable. Of course I'm not where I want to be, but at least there IS a difference in what I've lost so far.
So that made me feel a lot better, now I'm glad I took that picture of my high weight. I remember when I got to goal the first time in April 2011, it was hard to find many before pictures because when you weigh 328 lbs., you avoid the camera at all costs. Hopefully I can take another picture when I hit my goal. I still can't believe I let it go that far--almost a 90-lb. regain. I really hope I don't do that again. I've had so many regains since hitting my goal in 2011, and I've noticed each one is a little more. It's so hard to get into that mindset necessary to drop weight after you spend months binging. I really have to remember this and try my hardest NOT to binge again. Even one binge can get me off track for months, so I've got to be very self-disciplined. But the way I feel today, even after the measly loss last night after a week of hard work, I think I can do it. At least it was a loss and not a gain!!! I'm moving in the right direction, and that is the important thing! I want to be in the 180's by the next weigh-in on Thursday night, so it's going to require some hard work. I'm up for it!!!