What If I Had It All Wrong For All of These Years?
Thursday, March 28, 2019
St. Patrick's Day was the last day I logged into Sparkpeople and tracked anything despite my espoused commitment to "do it this time!" What exactly is the struggle? Someone told me once that being overweight and unfit means you don't know how to manage your life well.
What if I've had this weight loss journey thing all wrong all of this time?
From all but non-existent time to plan, food shop, and cook healthy meals to working late so I'm so tired I don't feel like exercising ( I am not a morning exerciser!), to setting aside no time to log in to Sparkpeople and get support from wonderful people - YES - I would say that being overweight and as unfit as I am right now means I am not managing my life well.
It seems the struggle isn't really about how many calories we eat or how many minutes we spend getting our heart rate pounding. Perhaps the focus on this journey isn't about any of that at all. Important? Certainly. But the focus? Not for those of us who constantly struggle to be consistent and who sit and have to admit defeat and figure out what went wrong THIS TIME. It shouldn't be the focus immediately, anyway. The focus of the journey is all about how to manage our lives better. For ourselves.
It's about how to get motivated to set aside that period of time one day a week to plan meals, do food shopping and meal prep. It's about about how to take the time to look at the calendar and plan the gym time and then to get there. It's about taking the time to prepare and pack healthy meals for work the night before. It's about setting that clock a bit earlier to get up and eat a healthy breakfast to start the day. And it's about finding the discipline to turn off Netflix and get to bed so a good 7-9 hours of good sleep starts our next day off in the best way possible.
I do none of those things. I don't take time for myself and have all kinds of excuses why I don't. In the end I just don't manage my life well. And so I find myself overweight and unfit and frustrated.
After so many times of starting over, getting on and off Sparkpeople, saying a gazillion times I'm going to get healthy and lose weight THIS TIME, I've realized I've just had it all wrong. No weight loss, no fit body, no healthy life style comes about if we don't manage our lives well and for us. It should have been so obvious, but I had it all wrong.
I have to first manage my life. For now I have to focus on doing the real work of setting aside the time to plan, shop, prep, get to the gym, get to bed. The weight loss and fitness will come naturally if I just manage my life better.
So here is to one more new start! My immediate journey is to focus on planning my time for me to do all of the things needed for weight loss and to get fit. It is a subtle difference but an important one.