All it takes is one bad photo...
Wednesday, March 27, 2019
I am feeling unreasonably and irrationally down.
Even though I am working my ass off (figuratively and literally) and am super strict on my nutrition and sleep and am seeing the results of that hard work.
Because we went out to dinner for my Dad's birthday last night and photos were taken. And I still looked enormous. I know there is a massive difference in my body composition and strength, so much so my clothes are literally too big for me now...but I LOOK fat.
I realise this is not a very positive post but I am human and I am not always positive - especially when it comes to myself. I guess I didn't realise how vain I am haha!
The need for aesthetics was, until now, a bonus side effect of getting stronger but I can't help feeling demoralised by one stupid photo.
Tomorrow is a new day and I will continue to workout and eat and sleep well.
This mood will pass and eventually my efforts will be more obvious to all but I am right now...a bit impatient :(