Why can't I do this - WHY ?
Monday, March 25, 2019
I have knows since Jan 1 I need a full knee replacement and in order to do this I have to lose 18 pounds. In reality, that is not a lot but I cant do it. I cant get myself to the gym, I am NOT eating right and I am becoming more and more depressed and more and more in PAIN. I take NO pain med at all, my mom is an addict so I am now terrified to take anything long term. I hurt everyday. I wanted to start to walk at lunch time, but I have not meal prepped to do that, so I can have lunch at my desk. I lack going to the gym before work. I don't know why but I do. I have to get his off in like 2 months or its a no go and I am just a mess.
i KNOW how to do all of this but I seem to be my own worse enemy. I am so at a loss.....