Thursday, March 21, 2019
I just read the last blog post I made a little over a year ago. Wow...that all made sense!! So WHY am I looking in the mirror, re-reading that post, and realizing that I haven't made any progress whatsoever? If anything, I've probably gained a little MORE weight! UGH!!!
So I have a new reason to get healthy. I'm going to be a first-time Grandma in July. My son and daughter-in-law are expecting a baby girl in July, and goodness knows, even though I won't see them THAT often, I want to be able to keep up with and play robustly with my new granddaughter.
And yes, I was maybe under a little more stress than I realized. My 93 year old Mom had a couple of falls last year, the worst being in October. Even though she went through a surgical fix for the break (her decision), she didn't make it afterward, and we lost her on October 30th. So, I'm learning to live without either of my parents. I miss them both.
Also last fall, I lost my last cat, Twiggy, and she was SUCH a dear. i miss her soulful eyes and loving personality. So, yes, last fall took an emotional toll.
On to the task at hand. Last fall, I went through a program offered here at Duke, through my fitness center, called Getting on Track. It was a six week program geared toward people who want to lose weight and need some help getting started. It covered areas of nutrition, behavior and exercise, and while I maybe didn't learn a lot that was new, it was a helpful nudge in the right direction (and this was BEFORE I knew I was to be a Grandma). I still haven't made the fitness center a regular habit (need to change that), but I HAVE been back to water aerobics on some Saturdays, and of course, I ALWAYS feel good afterward.
I re-joined Weight Watchers, thinking I need to attend a "workshop" (as they're now called) to help my accountability. Yeah, what was I thinking? Issues around scheduling has made me miss the last two (or was it three) weeks, and I've since determined: I don't need them. I have ALL I need on SparkPeople, and it won't hit my bank account! So, I've quit that and will be back on here on a regular basis.
The exercise physiologist who worked with the Getting on Track program has agreed to be a "sounding board" (off the books as a personal trainer) and help me be accountable to myself. When I go to the gym, I often see her, and touch base now and again through email. She's delightful, knowledgeable, and VERY helpful.
I have also signed up to work with the nutritionist who worked with Getting on Track. Who knew that insurance would pay for consults with a nutritionist? Ok, well MY insurance will pay for 6 visits/year. I've met with her once, and will meet again in about two months. Because of her help, I'm actually tracking!!! Ugh....don't like it, but I know it works, so I'm giving it an honest go. I had a fairly rough evening schedule last week, and I know I didn't eat right all the time, but I'm giving tracking a really hard try this week. One positive: I have no hesitation, and actually feel better when I eat out to eat only half the portion, and feel satisfied. Absolutely no qualms about taking half the dinner home (usually for lunch the next day). That's a positive change.
I only need to keep in front of me that my health is worth fighting and working for. I deserve it, and my family deserves it. NO MORE EXCUSES. I need to keep reminding myself that I don't feel comfortable at this weight, and only I can change it...which I will. There will be stumbles, and that's okay. As long as I remind myself WHY I'm doing this, get up, and keep moving forward. Don't look back, don't get bummed, just look forward to the sunny days ahead.
P.S. I want to FINALLY learn to use the hula hoop!!