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What the.....?

Thursday, March 21, 2019

I just read the last blog post I made a little over a year ago. Wow...that all made sense!! So WHY am I looking in the mirror, re-reading that post, and realizing that I haven't made any progress whatsoever? If anything, I've probably gained a little MORE weight! UGH!!!

So I have a new reason to get healthy. I'm going to be a first-time Grandma in July. My son and daughter-in-law are expecting a baby girl in July, and goodness knows, even though I won't see them THAT often, I want to be able to keep up with and play robustly with my new granddaughter.

And yes, I was maybe under a little more stress than I realized. My 93 year old Mom had a couple of falls last year, the worst being in October. Even though she went through a surgical fix for the break (her decision), she didn't make it afterward, and we lost her on October 30th. So, I'm learning to live without either of my parents. I miss them both.

Also last fall, I lost my last cat, Twiggy, and she was SUCH a dear. i miss her soulful eyes and loving personality. So, yes, last fall took an emotional toll.

On to the task at hand. Last fall, I went through a program offered here at Duke, through my fitness center, called Getting on Track. It was a six week program geared toward people who want to lose weight and need some help getting started. It covered areas of nutrition, behavior and exercise, and while I maybe didn't learn a lot that was new, it was a helpful nudge in the right direction (and this was BEFORE I knew I was to be a Grandma). I still haven't made the fitness center a regular habit (need to change that), but I HAVE been back to water aerobics on some Saturdays, and of course, I ALWAYS feel good afterward.

I re-joined Weight Watchers, thinking I need to attend a "workshop" (as they're now called) to help my accountability. Yeah, what was I thinking? Issues around scheduling has made me miss the last two (or was it three) weeks, and I've since determined: I don't need them. I have ALL I need on SparkPeople, and it won't hit my bank account! So, I've quit that and will be back on here on a regular basis.

The exercise physiologist who worked with the Getting on Track program has agreed to be a "sounding board" (off the books as a personal trainer) and help me be accountable to myself. When I go to the gym, I often see her, and touch base now and again through email. She's delightful, knowledgeable, and VERY helpful.

I have also signed up to work with the nutritionist who worked with Getting on Track. Who knew that insurance would pay for consults with a nutritionist? Ok, well MY insurance will pay for 6 visits/year. I've met with her once, and will meet again in about two months. Because of her help, I'm actually tracking!!! Ugh....don't like it, but I know it works, so I'm giving it an honest go. I had a fairly rough evening schedule last week, and I know I didn't eat right all the time, but I'm giving tracking a really hard try this week. One positive: I have no hesitation, and actually feel better when I eat out to eat only half the portion, and feel satisfied. Absolutely no qualms about taking half the dinner home (usually for lunch the next day). That's a positive change.

I only need to keep in front of me that my health is worth fighting and working for. I deserve it, and my family deserves it. NO MORE EXCUSES. I need to keep reminding myself that I don't feel comfortable at this weight, and only I can change it...which I will. There will be stumbles, and that's okay. As long as I remind myself WHY I'm doing this, get up, and keep moving forward. Don't look back, don't get bummed, just look forward to the sunny days ahead.

P.S. I want to FINALLY learn to use the hula hoop!!
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    Duke is a great place for programs, I have seen a few doctors there, plus I am the mom of a duke law school grad, IF I lived closer I would have liked to join a few of them

    Congrats in becoming a grandma. Sorry for the loss of your mother

    You have made so much progress in the last year. emoticon
    505 days ago
    Oh my, I have worn the same pair of shoes! I too recommitted again in January to SP. I was not at my highest weight (yet) but was close enough to it to prompt me into action. I have found what is working for me so far - eating mainly whole foods in moderation and walking. I have a gym membership - but don't always have that extra hour and half to two hours in my day to make the drive there, workout, and return. I can lace up a pair of shoes and walk anywhere - including on the treadmill in my home!

    Yep, we have everything we need to make this journey. Let's do it!!! I'm right here with you!
    505 days ago
    You might not feel good after reading last year's post but you are making great strides. I found tracking my food (literally everything that went into my mouth) was an eye opener in the beginning. Now it is no problem at all to track and it keeps me honest. "Oh, yeah, I put a dab of honey on the pear. Add it to spark!"

    You are rocking it!
    505 days ago
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    My goal is to be healthy for me and the grandchildren so I understand your concerns. Little ones can be great motivators. Good luck
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