At the crossroads

I am now to a fork in the road with my core. What am I made of? who am I? and to decide am I going to allow these past 6 1/2 months make me bitter or better? I am so angry at so many levels with so many people. I know anger of course is a secondary emotion and my emotions are really fear, shame, sadness, resentment etc. this has drained my joy! I am fighting yet question why should I be having to. I question God - where are you? Did you forget us? How much longer? Your time is not our time but do you see what this is doing to us? My daughter? I am getting hate mail from people in the Christian Community which makes me want to turn away -yet at the same time I need something to hang to. My daughter is with us every day and all weekend which is not healthy for any of us. It’s like a smothering love that consumes my spirit and yet we are her safety until the arrest. Obviously been a bad week!! Thanks.