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At the crossroads

Wednesday, March 20, 2019

I am now to a fork in the road with my core. What am I made of? who am I? and to decide am I going to allow these past 6 1/2 months make me bitter or better? I am so angry at so many levels with so many people. I know anger of course is a secondary emotion and my emotions are really fear, shame, sadness, resentment etc. this has drained my joy! I am fighting yet question why should I be having to. I question God - where are you? Did you forget us? How much longer? Your time is not our time but do you see what this is doing to us? My daughter? I am getting hate mail from people in the Christian Community which makes me want to turn away -yet at the same time I need something to hang to. My daughter is with us every day and all weekend which is not healthy for any of us. It’s like a smothering love that consumes my spirit and yet we are her safety until the arrest. Obviously been a bad week!! Thanks.
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    So sad there is a beginning and an end to most things ... it's the middle that takes the time. God is with you :).
    719 days ago
    I just hate the idea of anyone giving you a hard time after all you have been through. Makes me very sad :(...
    So they will be making an arrest?
    719 days ago
  • SUNSHINE5268
    I am sorry I live in Colorado.... otherwise I would hug you in person and ask what I could do, hugsssss

    please know that you are NOT alone my angel.
    God has NOT forsaken you.

    please hang in there and know that we all ARE praying for you and your family,

    719 days ago
    I wish there was something I could say to make things easier. These legal fights take all of our energy and probably a combo of bitter and better. I figured long ago that God has left me to fend for myself. Big hug.
    719 days ago
  • TWEDEE777
    Saying prayers for you and your family. 🙏🙏
    719 days ago
    Remember Yogi Berra's quote regarding your position:
    "When you come to a fork in the road, take it!"

    Keep on Keeping on!

    Make today the greatest day of your life!
    Until tomorrow!

    What is past is past. You can do nothing about yesterday and last month and the failures of last year, but you can do everything toward making tomorrow and the rest of your life what you always dreamed it could be.
    Og Mandino

    719 days ago
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