Monday, March 18, 2019
"Be happy" sounds so trite - - and somewhat selfish - - but Be Happy is one of my goals that I'm working on for the next few months. It encompasses all sorts of self-care that I wanted to lump together, things that I've been neglecting in my life - little things that add a better quality to my life.
When I wrote "Be Happy" on my day planner - - a goal so simple that I almost didn't write it - - it made me cry. I had to stop and sit with those feelings for a bit. Bottom line is, inside I don't feel that I deserve to be happy. That was eye-opening.
There are a lot of reasons why I feel that way (which I won't go into now) but I have to step back and ask "Are those things true?" Do these things really mean that I don't deserve to be happy? That happiness is something that I'm not worthy enough for? That I've missed my chance? like the door to happiness closed decades ago and there's no way "in" now?
No, they don't. These 'reasons' are not valid.
I'm working to declutter a lot of the 'junk' in my head - I keep finding more and more but I'm trying to clear it out and replace it with truth - I'm a hoarder of negative thoughts and beliefs! And just like a hoarder's house, I no sooner move one 'box' than three more fall down that need to be dealt with.
I just want to encourage anyone who maybe feels the way I did, that you DO deserve to be happy and healthy and strong - get rid of the lies in your heart and head and re-write them - you and I, we can each Be Happy.