It all started with an iced blueberry donut...
Wednesday, March 13, 2019
I realize this feels very, "It was a dark and stormy night..." but that is the thing I have decided put me on the wrong path and made it difficult to stick with my plan. That one indulgence, however small it may seem to some, became a rolling snowball that grew and grew. For an emotional eater, this one iced blueberry donut lead to multiple deviations from healthy. I saw a post this morning from @KURTZIE1998 that referred to food as a relationship and you can't expect things to get better if you cheat! WOW. Yes, that is common sense for me. But, did it occur to me? NO. I have difficulty seeing the big picture sometimes and tend to focus on the minute details. This can be overwhelming and produce negative outcomes, i.e. - one iced blueberry donut to over calorie range four days in a row.
I have learned indulgences, however small, are not safe for me right now. If I want sugar, there are a myriad of fresh fruits I can consume. I noted the days I did chair exercises at my desk during the work day were more on track and my eating was healthier.
I become impatient with myself. Literally, I irritate me. Then, I remember I need to give myself some compassion so that I can successfully traverse these ups and downs and learn, LeArN, LEARN!! I don't have this thing down by any means but I am improving regularly as I continue to try. I'm worth it!
I feel like the scale set me free today. It let me see where I was, aka what damage had been done, and begin again on multiple fronts. I have to say, that is one of the better experiences I've had with a scale in my life.
I will go to the grocery store during lunch today. Everything I am getting is in the produce section, so it should be an easy trip and I'll get some walking in as well.
This week, no donuts!
Hang in there everybody!