Three Years Gone
Monday, March 11, 2019
It has now been three years since we lost my oldest daughter, Sami. She passed March 10th of 2016. As much as there are still times where it feels like the ball in the box is pressing hard on the pain button, we are healing and surviving this horrible loss one step at a time, one day at a time.
Yesterday, her younger sister, Deni, and I went with a friend to see Captain Marvel. Our family has always been huge Marvel fans, and of course most especially Spiderman, who was and is both my girls favorite. It was a great movie, and it was fun to spend time with good friends and laughing and yelling at the movie.
I miss her. Of course, I miss her. She was my firstborn, the first being to ever show me what unconditional love is. I will always miss her, and some days are just going to be difficult. But yesterday also showed me that we can push through, we are healing, and we can survive this - even on the days that feels impossible.
Yesterday morning, I took a 4 mi. walk early in the morning, and there were absolutely moments where I could FEEL her presence with me. And I needed that, so very much. I even saw the image of a mermaid in the clouds, from my little mermaid, Sami. Maybe only I saw it there, but still I did.
And today, I am grateful for each and every blessing and moment with both of my daughters. And for each moment to come. Have a great day, my Spark friends!!