Learning to Celebrate Myself
Friday, March 08, 2019
So March is my birthday month. And if you ask any of my friends or family they will tell you that I love my birthday. Usually I announce it, telling everyone that the entire month is my birthday and I expect them to acknowledge how great March really is -if only because I was born during it! (I realize that this is quite annoying.)
This year I decided that each day of the month I would do one nice thing just for me. Nothing big just simple things like a new book or game, a manicure or even just a Starbucks coffee. Just to remind myself that I need to take care of myself not just the people around me. I know...it seems quite selfish but as I get older I am learning that self care is an important part of being a happy person. I am not saying that one should only focus on themselves and everyone else should wait in line. But I do think that in order for us to help each other we must also learn to help ourselves.
With that being said I noticed that each day so far most of my "gifts" to myself have been in the form of food. One day I had chocolate, another day it was candy, and yet another day a Frappacino.
I started to bash myself-- "what are you doing? Your such a glutton. Sabotaging your whole healthy living plan and using your birthday as an excuse!" I felt ashamed and angry. It really was an awful feeling and I was really down on myself.
But then something happened. I realized that even though I was eating something that was not so healthy calling it a birthday treat and shoving it down, I was also owning that decision. I tracked it on my nutrition tracker. I was conscious of its "unhealthiness". That chocolate was chocolate covered almonds and I only had one serving. I didn't eat the entire package of candy-I only had a few. And the Frappacino was fat free, sugar free and was the smallest one they sold.
True, I didn't need these. But I wanted them. And it's okay. Part of being healthy is learning to acknowledge where you need improvement, accepting that you make mistakes and brushing off the dirt and continuing. It also means that you can reward yourself.
I still have a long way to go (losing 75 pounds is not an easy task). I'm only 20 pounds down and two months in. But I'm learning and progressing. That in itself is a reward. So to anyone sruggling like I am remember its okay. We can do this. We will do this.
Needless to say I am still going to give myself something every day this month. But I am going to work harder at it not always being food. I'm thinking today I will get a pedicure. Tomorrow a nice bubble bath sounds good. Maybe the next day I will take a nap....hey the possibilities are endless!