at work with my heating pad on my back
Thursday, February 21, 2019
Feeling very stressed out. Lack of time to even get things done I need to.
My uncle died Monday, and I have wake to go to Friday. I feel guilty about not wanting to go to his funeral on Saturday morning, but it seems like too much for me. Driving back and forth to and from Huntington. I will probably just make an appearance Friday. Then I get stressed out having to contact my brother in Jersey and just wanting to go for a couple of hours and get it over with and not have to see them and make a social thing out of it. I guess I am antisocial. I feel uncomfortable around them. My sister-in-law has been mean and condescending towards me in the past, and I never got over it.
Have been cutting back and limiting the snacks I eat. This led to a couple of mini-binges last weekend. My anxiety level seems to ratchet up when I don't sedate myself with food.
But pluses are: I logged in my food for all meals for a week. 7 days. All my food.
I did not have any Valentines Day dessert, though I got something small for my husband.
I have cut out some of the snacks I was having, or replaced them with raw vegetables and fruit.
I eliminated energy bars almost completely. Either I have nuts or seed crackers with nut butter, not both.
My next move is to eliminate munching on food while I prep food. Raw veggies and tomato juice. Or almond milk, if craving/hungry.
I hated letting go of the social part of SP here, but felt I was too distracted by it. I focus now on recording what I eat and looking at my eating behavior.