Sunday, February 17, 2019
As my birthday nears and my MIL lies on her death bed, I just feel lost and scared about getting old. I know many of you are older than I am, I will turn 62 in about a week and have been having a hard time with this. I kind of feel that there was a past life in which I died at age 62 which doesn't help. Both parents died at 55 so getting older is scary for me. All my loved ones older than us have already passed (accept my in-laws) who I could confide in and talk to.
IT didn't help either when the person I went to to trim 3 inches off my hair told me she doesn't think older women should have long hair! Well, that sure made me feel good!
Please don't say my fears are dumb that you are way older than I am. (I am saying that to myself already) I am reaching out for love, not make me feel worse than I already am. 62 is young for other people when I look and think about them, so why can't I feel that way about myself?
This may be my way of grieving too as my MIL lay on her death bed, she is only in her 70s.
So, i thought I would put myself out there and ask for support and since I have nobody close to talk to about this.
1. How you are taking care of yourself?
2. What are your feelings about aging?
3. Any other thoughts, wisdom or feelings!
4 Are you afraid of getting older?
Thank you so much!