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Why does it ALWAYS seem so tough.

Thursday, January 24, 2019

I have started this journey so many times it sickens me. I struggle with a lot of mental health problems and some days i can bring myself to even get out of bed, or i binge eat the entire pack of cookies before bed. Im trying to make better choices and get moving but i just always feel like it something that just wont happen for me. I considered all the surgeries out there, but i know deep down i can do it if i could get out of my depression long enough to start.
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    668 days ago
    You are definitely not alone! I like to think of my depression as a tricky monster, and the only way to fight it is to do what it doesn't want me to do.

    Me: Cook dinner?
    Monster: No, I don't want anything I will make, a cheeseburger would be better and faster and easier and tastier.
    Me: No, that's not going to help my goal, just eat the [whatever is at home]. (I do try to keep some quick and easy stuff at home for these fights. Like mandarins, hummus and chips, stir fry kits, etc)

    This is only one example, it extends to the take a shower fight, the get out of bed fight, the go for a walk fight. It really is an internal battle sometimes. But the more you fight back the easier it gets and better I feel.

    Hope that is something that might help for you too, but if not, no worries! Keep sparking, never give up, you'll get there!

    671 days ago
  • SNOWHYTE1822
    Thank you all, i was not expecting responses. Its great to know we have a caring community!
    672 days ago
    To some this might seem really bleak and pessimistic, but what really helped me is accepting that THIS (weight, health, eating, exercise) is going to be a LIFE LONG STRUGGLE for me. I'm never going to suddenly "get it", I'm never going to be one of those people who doesn't have to worry, to whom it comes naturally, or someone who WANTS to eat healthy and exercise.

    And so, I accept that I will always have to deal with this. I will have good days and bad days. I will have successes and failures. I will lose weight and gain weight. But I won't give up.

    You don't have to figure it all out in one day, you have your whole life to do that. Just pick one thing you would like to change, and start with that. It can be something small. A few years back, I was 270 pounds and had horrible sciatica pain, I made myself step back in forth in place for 5 minutes. Some days it took me 10 tries to make that 5 minutes.
    673 days ago
    Everyone is different with different situations, so I'll not offer any advice right now. This is not about me and I'm not trying to make it about me, but I'll share my own thoughts on my situation in case it will help you in some small way.

    I tend to have lots of emotional ups and downs myself. When I get down I tend to withdraw and avoid people and social media conversations. I am trying to use various tools that I find helpful. I've been writing in a notebook, listening to audiobooks and podcasts that I find uplifting, reading inspirational books, using Sedona Method techniques and so on.

    Spark People has such good resources. I would like to change some of my habits, so I made the resolution that I'll logon to SP every day no matter how I'm feeling. My one resolution. One small thing.

    I'm going to add you as a Spark friend and hope to see more of your posts.

    673 days ago
  • RHOOK20047
    Welcome to SparkPeople. We are all here for the same reason, no matter what our personal story is. We are here to help each other to get to that healthy point we want to be in our lives. It is not going to be easy, but it is attainable. Make small goals and they will lead to big successes. You have to make you #1 and tell yourself that you are worth it. And remember you didn't gain the weight overnight and you won't lose it overnight. It takes time, determination, motivation and support. You can get it all right here! If you don't take care of yourself you can't take care of anyone else. If I can help in anyway, feel free to reach out to me! You can do it! We are here to help! Welcome and get active on this site. emoticon
    674 days ago
  • no profile photo YOGINILISA
    Be gentle with yourself! Keep saying positive, loving things to yourself. The body achieves what the mind believes. Take the smallest of steps and continue, continue. I liked some of the other suggestions too--get a fur baby & accountability buddy😘
    674 days ago
    I struggle with several issues too. It's really hard. Sparking will help and hopefully a new you will emerge!
    674 days ago
    Just keep on keeping on in the right direction, even if it's with baby steps. You can reach your goals.
    674 days ago
    It really is tough when your head is in that space. I struggle too- especially when I'm on my own. I got a dog so I have to get out and walk, then I get exercise, meet people and feel a lot better when I come home. I don't suppose that's at all practical if you're heading off around the world though.
    We do have groups in England where people can walk old people and disabled people's dogs for them. Just a thought.
    Just try to keep plodding on. You can get there one emoticon step at a time.
    674 days ago
    Praying for your success, sending you positive vibes.
    674 days ago
    Hang in there Sweetie. All you SPARK friends are rooting for you! (What worked for me was giving up Sugar & Wheat. I’m in a much better place now and down 69 lbs.) HUGS
    674 days ago
    Hey Snowhyte, just wanted to let you know that you are not alone. I struggle from several mental health issues, depression being one of them too. I know that you can do this, you just a little help. Like an accountability partner.
    674 days ago
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