January 18 - Depression Kicking My Butt
Saturday, January 19, 2019
It is a hard time of year. The anniversary of my husband & daughter's passing is next Sunday. Its hard to believe its been 11 years.
Yesterday started out okay. I got my water in and made good food choices. Then around 6pm I could feel my mood shifting. I called Alan and told him to go pick up Arbys, that I wasnt cooking dinner.
My personal trainer knows its a hard time of year. I still held myself accountable and told him about my food choices. He told me:
"Its okay, its just 1 meal. Look at the positives, you got hour 64 ounces of water in and you kicked butt and walked 1.5 miles in 30 minutes. Now thats something to be proud of".
It helps to have a trainer who understands your dark days and helps you to see the sun peeking thru the storm clouds.