Reboot Day 64
Thursday, January 17, 2019
I wasn't able to lose this week but still feel real good. I did lose inches so I have to remember that's always a huge plus.
The Last two weeks have been crazy. I have 2 friends that lost loved ones. One friend lost his father last Thursday and the other friend lost her godmother/Aunt yesterday. These were 2 very important people in my friends lives and my heart aches for them. Both died of cancer. To watch their struggles of watching their loved ones only puts in perspective what my family and I are going to go through soon with my mom. I dread it every day. Not even wanting to pick up the phone at times from certain family members, not wanting to hear the inevitable. I know I have said it before but just an refresher, my mom has stage v kidney disease with cardiorenal syndrome. Back in June they gave us weeks for her to pass, but through the Grace of God and her strong will she is still with us fighting her hardest fight. She's been in and out of the hospital since, but is still trying. I can see her getting weaker and it's the hardest thing to watch her fight so hard. But we know when it's her time, God will call her home. So we just do everything like normal and just love her and give her all the support she wants to receive. It's been difficult, but have to stay strong for her. She doesn't want to do dialysis because she watched what it did to my Godfather and she said she is to old to go through that and let her life be God's will. Have to respect that, regardless how selfish we want to be to prolong her life. But on a good not she is sill very happy and jokes with us and makes us feel good. And continues to yell at my dad, so we know she's ok for now. It's when she stops yelling is when we need to be concerned.
I am not sure what else to say, but either way, thank you for reading and for your support. Have a wonderful day.