1/11/19 - Wore a tank top
Friday, January 11, 2019
Wore a tank too to work out after years. I felt good in it, but my trainer took a video of me working out and omg I do not like the way I look. I look huge. So no more tank tops for me for while. Ugh. When I see myself in mirror I think I look good, but in videos and some pics I look giant. Sometimes i wonder what these guys that are attracted in me see, cuz I don't see it. Even though they like the big booty and boobs... I'm still really unfit looking. There's this old "friend" that wants to meet up, but I'm really self conscious right now so I keep blowing him off. Even though he's seen me heavy. I feel like my stomach is getting bigger. Or maybe my boobs are shrinking and that's why it looks bigger lol. I'm really trying to not let all this get to me..its only been a month....thats nothing. It will take a few months to start seeing physical difference. I do however need to eat better and plan my meals.