I am ready to re-enter the world
Wednesday, January 09, 2019
My daughter died October 20 from incurable brain cancer. She and I were very close, and the best of friends. I couldn't save her, but I know she was comforted by me being there right up to the very end.
Life has been very painful these past years, and I lost a whole world. But now I am recognizing I need to rejoin the world.
I need support and encouragement to be able to go on. I have never gotten so much support as I have from Sparkies. ESPECIALLY the Spirited Underdogs, my bestest team.
I am trying to get back in with them, and hope I am not too late. I so very much want to join in with their challenges, tricks, activities and humor.
I am looking forward to being a Sparkie again. I didn't put on the tonnage while being the care taker; in fact, I held my weight steady. I attribute that to stress and lessons about eating I learned from being an active member of Spark.
One thing that is really strange!!! I am losing my appreciation for CHOCOLATE! I can't explain that, but in a way it is like leaving a dear friend. But it just doesn't "get it" for me like it used to.
Now I am on a fruit binge. Have you tried this years' Bartlett pears??!! Woo Baby!!! they are incredible! I am going to sign off and get myself a pear. Or maybe I will get 2 Pears! I have the point allowance and besides, I WANT PEARS!
Do you realize we have already had the longest night of the year?? That means we are closing in on Spring. Well, maybe not quite closing in, but we are headed for it! I want my arms to look better than bat wings by spring time. I swear if I flap my arms I can fly all the way to Dallas!!!