1.8.19 DADDY'S GAMBLING AND ME 😢
Tuesday, January 08, 2019
Trigger warning..... gambling addiction
My father's gambling problem sent me into 3 panic attacks since Friday. He obviously has issues with money and it started with him searching for a cell phone payment posting. He harassed me about that 3 times and just hearing the anguish and anxiousness in his voice set me off.
I helped him twice in his life file bankruptcy after screwing up and I am not mentally strong enough to do it again. He is forbidden to even talk to me about money, but he has been slipping up lately. He definitely can't ask me for any, besides I am pending disability.
Then I had therapy yesterday and right beforehand, guess what I hear on my voice mail? "Ms we are looking for your father for check fraud and he's subject to arrest. Your atty and you should be prepared to be subpoenaed. If you don't know this person call this number"
Y'all I about LOST IT!!!! he's 71, living with a 34yr old and in the casino every other day. My head was spinning and I took 3 hydroxyzine. I went straight to therapy luckily it was already scheduled... and she reminded me THIS was NOT my problem. Only his.
I think he is going to lose his house cause he has not been paying the property taxes properly the last few years. I don't know if I am strong enough to go thru this again with him..... or even just witness it.