When the rubber meets the road

My whole life has been healthy, caring and doing for others. Driving others to appointments and doing things for them. Now I sit with books knowing my lifestyle has to change and it is up to me. Amazing how one incident can change so much. One diagnosed underlying disease and no repairing the damage. Like old battle scars that never heal. Now I know more than ever I really need to up my game and be an advocate for my daughter and her future. Just as a grief cycle when experiencing a loss, there are cycles of a parent whose child has been sexually assaulted. Stress has taken its toll, and now to use that energy, that drive, to look beyond myself and her and to focus to the future of others. I can’t change my body but I can use my body for change. I Needed to be totally down so I could get refueled to build back up.