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Life After Hurricane Florence

Friday, January 04, 2019

So I've been gone for a long time and much has happened. I lost my home in the Hurricane and we only recently were no longer homeless. Long story short, we ended up selling our old house instead of repairing it (because we didn't want to be in the same place should another hurricane come through next year), bought and moved into a brand new home. I will post some pics later.

Of course, during this stressful time, I wasn't doing well with my self care. I recently talked to a friend who is an opioid addict. We talked about the comparisons of drug use and the fact that food is basically my drug habit. He had learned in a meeting that he had often had periods of time where he was able to stop using drugs (called it being "dry") but that he had never, until recently been "sober." Wow. I know there are TONS of times I have been "dry" - been eating well, exercising, losing weight - but I don't think I've ever been truly "sober." I don't think I have ever learned to really change my THINKING about food, my "relationship" with food, and what I really use food for. I have substituted other things periodically, but my basic thinking hasn't changed. That's why I haven't been able to stay "sober."

So in this new year, I'm going to stop focusing on the food. I'm going to learn more about my way of thinking - figure out why I keep making the choice to "use" - and work toward sobriety.

I GOT THIS.
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  • _RAMONA
    I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your home. I honestly cannot imagine many things worse. I'm glad you're back and able to renew your focus on self-care.

    I really appreciate the distinction you're making here: dry as opposed to sober. I know for myself that when this journey stopped being about food in any way is when I really began to build success on a daily basis and create the life I really want.

    You truly do have this!
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    279 days ago
  • TUBLADY
    It's terrible to lose a home.
    There's no way I can compare any loses to those you have experienced.
    Thabkgoodness you are healthy and able to move to an new one.
    Material items can be replaces, lives can not.
    I too use food as a drug.
    When upset I eat. I'm not sure one is ever completely free from that .
    But now that you have settled, you can address the food issues.
    I wish the year to be a happy productive one.
    Spark on.
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    281 days ago
  • GOLFGMA
    Glad you are past the hurricane dilemma. We know that disaster can strike any of us at anytime. The holiday season was a hard time to control eating and I admit the part mix was my downfall this year. I am determined to get eating under control. Spending lots of time exercising trying to keep control. emoticon
    282 days ago
  • MAYIE53
    I am sooooooo glad you are back!!!!
    282 days ago
  • NESY316
    Group that "I tell this body what to do, where to go, what to eat, when to sleep and when to wake up." This oddly enough gave me confirmation that I WAS on track by taking control. Good luck to you on your journey.
    282 days ago
  • NESY316
    I stumbled into a church during a sermon to a group of drug abusers. I was dropping off a mattress donation. I had been feeling guilty about all the time i' d begun putting into working out and my focus on nutrition. The speaker basically told the
    282 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    So very sorry to hear you lost your home but very glad to know that you are now in a new home. Wishing you all the very best.

    Very glad to see your post and that you’ve resumed your journey. Yes, food is the drug of choice for many. NOT easy.

    Hugs and prayers for your future.

    282 days ago
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