Life After Hurricane Florence
Friday, January 04, 2019
So I've been gone for a long time and much has happened. I lost my home in the Hurricane and we only recently were no longer homeless. Long story short, we ended up selling our old house instead of repairing it (because we didn't want to be in the same place should another hurricane come through next year), bought and moved into a brand new home. I will post some pics later.
Of course, during this stressful time, I wasn't doing well with my self care. I recently talked to a friend who is an opioid addict. We talked about the comparisons of drug use and the fact that food is basically my drug habit. He had learned in a meeting that he had often had periods of time where he was able to stop using drugs (called it being "dry") but that he had never, until recently been "sober." Wow. I know there are TONS of times I have been "dry" - been eating well, exercising, losing weight - but I don't think I've ever been truly "sober." I don't think I have ever learned to really change my THINKING about food, my "relationship" with food, and what I really use food for. I have substituted other things periodically, but my basic thinking hasn't changed. That's why I haven't been able to stay "sober."
So in this new year, I'm going to stop focusing on the food. I'm going to learn more about my way of thinking - figure out why I keep making the choice to "use" - and work toward sobriety.
I GOT THIS.