week 56 of therapy
Wednesday, January 02, 2019
This week in session we discussed Dr. Araujo and how he has affected me over the years. I told her about the time we spent together as patient and doctor and how we played online and I beat him. I also read the poem I wrote about the situation. I am realizing that he truly cares for me and wants the best for me as a doctor or he wouldn't have hugged me like he did so many times to show his appreciation for our connection. Now that he is leaving I must leave my care to another doctor I must be willing to trust. That means learning to rely on the doctor when the pain is bad and tell them so. Also be willing to trust the procedure they are performing on me as well. I am not a test subject. I am a patient who is going from one doctor to another who knows this is normal for a doctor to leave practice in my state or any state. I have learned to realize that God is in charge of my health and not me. For He is my Creator and He will eventually heal me here or in heaven. That choice is up to Him not me.